I once read that we should pray as we can, not as we can’t. I need to work within my own way of prayer to make it better, not try to force myself into a mold I admire in others. Satan sometimes whispers in my ear that the way I pray isn’t really valid. How do you know you’re not just talking to yourself? Why do you think that idea came from God, it’s just what you want to do anyway. Why would you think God is using you, you’re not so special! To counteract this, I need some reminders that keep me focused on God while I go about my daily life of prayer.
I’ve started a daily routine of taking a walk early in the morning. I’ve decided to use this time (usually about 15 minutes) to ask God to be with me during the day, to guide my thoughts and actions. When I can’t walk due to the weather, I use an exercise DVD. On these days, as soon as I’ve finished the DVD, I will take a few minutes to close my eyes, relax and meditate with the same intent.
I do feel bad that my husband and I never pray together, except for table grace. This is largely my fault, since Terry knows I an uncomfortable with verbal prayers. In order to improve our family prayer life we have committed to spending some time every afternoon when he comes home from work reviewing our day together. What went well? What fell apart? What upset us? How did we experience God’s presence? His guidance? Then we’ll give thanks for the good things and ask for help to do better tomorrow.
I also want recognize more intentionally, the part that study and worship play in my prayer life. Before I start these activities I will invite God to be with me and help me hear His Word for me.
When I am in a situation where I need to pray out loud with others, I will look upon it as an opportunity to grow spiritually and serve others. I will recognize that my spiritual life isn’t all about me. I will ask God to use even my awkward prayers to bless me and those around me.
This is my prayer vision for the coming year. What’s yours? The first step in becoming a Godly leader is to pray, pray, pray.