Are you tired of waiting? It seems like we pray and nothing happens. We think the Lord isn’t paying any attention to us and whatever we’re going through is just dragging along. We can’t do anything ourselves, but we pray and ask the Lord to do something, anything. Please, just get us out of this place where we are so… stuck.
Oh, yes. I’ve been in this place for quite awhile. I was stuck while I was taking care of my terminally ill husband. I prayed for change because I was unhappy with the place that the Lord had me. I had nursing aides during the day so I could work and then I came home and took care of my husband until bedtime. To say that I was exhausted would be an understatement.
But I learned a lot during that time. I learned to be patient. I couldn’t change the situation I was in so I had to rely on the Lord. After making myself miserable (and probably those around me) I found this verse:
I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:11-13
So Paul had learned to be content, because the Lord was the one who gave him strength. So I worked on this in my prayer life, thanking the Lord for the life that he gave me, that I had a job and aides to help, food on the table and a roof over that table. My attitude got better and I wasn’t so miserable. It was still extremely hard but I could feel that the Lord was with me, and my heart was so much more grateful for the small things in my life.
My husband died three years ago and lately I’m back in another waiting pattern. I have plans to retire in two years so now I need to just wait until that two years is over. I have plans for what I want to do when my life doesn’t revolve around my job. Yes, this is a different waiting pattern because it has a scheduled end and I’m not as exhausted as I was before. I’m anxious to get started on my plans, but they have to wait.
Until then, the Lord has put in front of me a challenge to deepen my study and prayer time. This I can do before and after work, but it’s still a challenge for me! I’m looking forward to my free time that I’ll have in several years, and then I’ll have a deeper knowledge of our Lord.