Remembering Hurting Times

We all have times when you feel like God has abandoned you, and you pray and pray and you wonder if He’s even listening.  I’ve had plenty of these times in my life.

Usually, I can look back and wonder how I got through such bad times.  At one point in my life I’d lost my job; we lost our home and had to move to a small apartment that my brother-in-law owned.  I had lost my mom several years before and as this was going on, my father died.  A very dark time in my life.  I felt like I’d been abandoned.

But I wasn’t trusting the Lord then.  I started to trust, slowly. Looking back, this was a good thing because life for me got tougher.  I learned to trust Jesus more.  As time went on my faith just got stronger.  My situation never got easier; I was just able to lean on the arms of the Lord and that was a comfort.

We want to make the hurting times go away.  We pray for God to just come in and change everything.  I’ve found out that it doesn’t happen that way.  If you have faith, the one that changes is you.

Of course, I have a song; Even If by MercyMe.  This song speaks volumes about trusting the Lord.

 

 

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Unanswered Prayer

I’m sure there are those of you out there that are reading what we’ve put up so far and are saying to yourselves “But God never answers my prayers!”

Let me tell you a bit of my story.  I spent many years as a caregiver to my husband and before that a “co-caregiver” with my Dad for my mother.  I prayed a lot.  Many of the prayers that I prayed went unanswered in the way that I prayed them.  “Heal my husband”; “Heal my Mom”.  Neither my husband or my mother were healed and both eventually died.

When my mom died, I got mad.  I had prayed and God didn’t answer my prayer.  I moved away from the Lord during that time because of my anger.  It was a very dark time in my life.  Then my husband got sick.

I would pray for healing for my husband, but there was a difference this time.  I had come back to the Lord and I knew I would never get through this time with out Him.  During my prayers other petitions would slip in.  “Give me strength” and “Help me cope”.  Now I have to tell you that those prayers were answered.  I found strength and hope through this prayer life.  I stopped praying for the healing and just raised my husband in prayer, because God knew what was what…  I didn’t need to keep asking for healing.  If God wanted him to be healed, he would be.  If not, then I needed all the strength I could get.    God is God.  I started to trust him with everything.

There is a song by Kutless (yes, I’m the music person on this blog!!) and they say the same thing so much better.  Here are the lyrics and a link to the video:

“Even If”

Sometimes all we have to hold on to
Is what we know is true of who You are
So when the heartache hits like a hurricane
That could never change who You are
And we trust in who You areEven if the healing doesn’t come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn’t comeLord we know Your ways are not our ways
So we set our faith in who You are
Even though You reign high above us
You tenderly love us
We know Your heart
And we rest in who You are

Even if the healing doesn’t come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn’t come

You’re still the Great and Mighty One
We trust You always
You’re working all things for our good
We’ll sing your praise

Even if the healing doesn’t come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn’t come

You are God and we will bless You
As the Good and Faithful One
You are God and we will bless You
Even if the healing doesn’t come
Even if the healing doesn’t come

And for those of you who would rather listen: